I felt a hand waking me up. I looked up and saw my mom and brothers. I asked her what was wrong and she told me “we have to leave”. Mom tied me by her chest with a carry sling and my third brother's name La Ben on her back while holding my two older brothers with one hand on each side.



 When we got out of our house, there were people who my mom talked to, I couldn’t see their faces or hear what they were saying. They help my mom take some stuff from our house.



It was silent, I could only hear the sound of the cricket chirping and the sound of footsteps on the ground in the background. I was getting sleepy. I tried to keep myself awake but I couldn't, I fell asleep on my mom's chest.



 I woke up to the sound of people talking, I furrowed my brows, wanting to sleep more, but couldn't. I opened my eyes, I could see that it was sunrise and the surrounding around me was all green with trees and other pretty flowers, I saw many unfamiliar faces, my mom put me and my brother down from her back and her chest. I stayed behind my brothers while my mom was talking to other people that I didn't know.



I saw my mom coming to me and my sibling, holding our hands while my two older brothers walked by themself following our mom, I learn from my second brother, Nel suan that the place we were in was called a Forest, When I asked him why we were here, he told me we were going to where our dad lives, a few minutes passed, 



 I could hear the sound of water splashing down, hitting the rocks, I closed my eyes while holding my mom's hand, listening to the sound of the waterfall and kids and adults laughing and talking joyfully.



I looked up to my mom and asked her if I could go too, my mom nodded, I took all my clothes and went down the lower bottom of the waterfall with other people, My mom showered me and La while telling us a story of her when she was younger, my two older brothers went to to the older side to shower somewhere else with the other people. 



I saw the one girl who seemed to be a bit older than me, about 1 year with two ponytails. She was playing all by herself, I went to her, splashed some little water on her, she looked at me and I looked back, we both laughed sometime later… We quickly became friends.



We got out of the water when my mom called us, I was the first to step out of the water, I put my hand over so she could reach out to grab my hand, we dried ourselves with the towel given by her mom and my mom after we wore our clothes we went back to the place where we first arrived.



My mom put me in her chest with the carry sling, going back and forth slowly while standing, I hear my mom saying “Ahh” and I imitate her saying “Ahh” back, she put the food on my mouth and she pretended to chew on it while I followed her, it went on until I was full, She patted my back making me burp, then she slowing smoothly my back and sing a lullaby song making me sleepy…. 



The next sunrise I woke up to the sound of a baby crying and everyone starting to get up and the mother of the baby gave her milk, then the sound of the crying quieted down… I tried to wake my brothers up since they were still sleeping. I shook them but they were still asleep so I told my mom and my mom woke them up. 



My mom had put me and La in the front and back with the carry sling while holding my Ring San and Nel Suan’s hand with each of her hands, then we went wherever we were. I could feel the breath and heartbeat of my mom while she was walking while carrying me.



 We went forward, we came across branches, some leaves were sharp enough to slight cut your skin, my mom had to be careful that we were not injured, she didn't mind if she was injured, I look up to my mom looking at her face, her face with filled with sweats and some small cuts, I called out to my mom “nunu, nunu” ( mommy, mommy), she answered with a “yes?” but didn’t say anything back.



As far as I can remember the journey went smoothly for five days until we had met our destination. I remember it was night, people who we were with were running, I was on my mom's chest while La was on her back and my Ring and Nel beside her.



I felt my body going up and down due to my mom running and running, I could feel her breath and heartbeat was beating and going very fast, I could hear some shouting from a far distance, the leader saw there was a river with bushes with leaves, my mom, brothers, and other people had to lead slightly toward the bushes, it was uncomfortable and hard to stay still because of the water touching our body making us shiver, our feets filled with mud, we had to stay on the water until the soldiers had left.



Minutes later… I could no longer hear the footsteps and voices of the soldiers, Boat came...mom got on the boat mud on her foot with Nel arranged by the leader who led us. We were the last to come aboard, After mom and Nel had gotten on it was Rin’s turn to climb on the boat.



We were in a hurry to go and my elder brother, Rin had almost slipped and drowned under the river when one of the guys helped Rin up on the boat.





 Mom hugged Rin while tearing up. Her tears soaked into my cheeks. I felt myself being squeezed as I sat between my mom and my brother.  After we were farthest to the place, the boat slowed down. I tug on my mom's clothes to let her know I was hungry. Mom fed me and my brothers with the remaining food we had. The boat slowed down after we got close to the destination.



The next morning, I dream of something nice but woke up due to my mom waking me up. We were in a place I didn't know, there were doctors and nurses here giving shots to babies, kids, and adults. Some nurses were playing with the kids. They gave us food to eat, I laughed when I burped. I looked for my friend to play with but couldn't find her. I stayed behind my mom or my brothers since I didn't know anyone.



My mom carried me with carrying sling and sat on a chair with my brothers along with many other people, I look at the front and there was a person reading something out loud, my mom suddenly stood up and I was surprised, I later find out what the person was reading, they were reading names that would go to Malaysia and they read my mom’s and ours, my mom packed all our stuff and took the paper, then walked out, a driver helped my mom and brothers move up in the bus.



It was crowded, I felt myself being pressed against the window and my third brother was also crying. I stared at him wondering why he was crying. Mom comforted him. Until everyone was aboard, the bus started driving. I looked through the window and was in awe as I looked at how fast we were moving. Despite the bumping road, the ride moved smoothly overall.



As we were about to pass Malaysia, the bus stop, I squinted my little eyes, trying to see what was happening. An officer or a soldier came near the bus, telling the driver to come out. The driver got off and instructed us to be quiet. The driver returned after speaking to the officer or soldier.



After we arrived in Malaysia, we had to wait for people to get off. Since there were too many people, we followed the person who led us and told us to wait. While waiting I struggle to get out of the carry sling, I succeed, sparker appears in my eyes as I look at the place in Aw, I have never seen anything like it.



 Until a man appeared through the sliding door. He looked and talked to my mom, he took our stuff and held me and my other brother while my mom held the other two. It appears that the man was my dad whom I have never seen since my birth. It turns out he was here to pick us up.