Isn't it weird that somehow I always end up alone, no matter what life stage i am in, no matter where I am, no matter how much I have grown up, i always end up alone and somehow, i just have to accept it that this is  how my life will be or maybe supposed to be, isn't it weird that I am just here somehow trying to live or maybe survive, unwanted everywhere and no matter how hard I try it's never gonna change i guess? will  ever be happy about it? I have been always like his , always been alone still somehow, i am not used to living alone, why I am the always unwanted, why I never have people for m? somehow everyone has their friend, or a person everywhere they go and why I have to be alone always? the people who would have been with me are never with me, and somehow everywhere I end up alone and it sucks to be like this to live like this, it suffocates to be like this an it feels like I am gonna die out of this suffocation and it hurts to be like this always and it hurts tooo it pains there, exact ,middle in my heart