If i kill myself

If i can stand life anymore, if the pain gets to much for me to bear this note will be on my bed. Its not anyones fault but mine and no i didnt do it for attention but I think theres somethings i need to tell yall. I was cutting myself all throughout 7th grade it felt nice it felt realy nice. I liked the way the stinging felt, sometime i would use a sponge and scrub my skin raw when doing dishes and i didnt tell nobody. Give kinslee my jewelry and all my money, give my bsf all my clothing, don't cry because deep down you knew it was going to happen one day, at my funeral play no hero by sad eyes, in the stars by benson boone and give heaven some hell.im sorry it had to be this way but it was obvious i wore a saftey pin on my neck and listen to music that said i would. I love yall im sorry.